Today I woke up not feeling very good about myself so I wrote a little of what comes from my heart. About the bitch of a hand this life deals you. This song is about PTSD, the biggest and baddest bitch I’ve ever known.
I look around staring at the ocean
Time flies yet I’m stuck in slow motion
Wondering if this life is really worth it
My mind where is it? Just unearth it!
Sometimes I try so hard just to be myself
Instead I’m just dust lying on a shelf
Remembering my past
The next minute I can’t last
Feel the shame from the game
I’m sorry, please, I’m not to blame!
This shit is insane, I feel the pain!
So everyday, yeah I wake, I bake
So what?
My mind just died buried in this ‘quake
I try to remind myself I’m worth it
My mind, where is it? Just unearth it!
I’m trapped underground
No one can hear a sound
I’m screaming so loud
Yet I cannot be found
I remember the days
When I wasn’t in this haze
Resilience is the answer
You are my cancer…